I have my music on my Ipod on shuffle mode, so I never know what song will come next. Near the end of my run, I got very sad and started to cry and just at the moment, the song "Another Day" from Rent came on my Ipod and I cried even harder but kept going. I'm sure it was Uncle saying he was right there with me and not to be sad. I miss him so much!! He was never far from my thoughts this morning.
The weather 3 years ago today is remarkably similar to today's weather. What a treat for there to be no humidity in July in MD. It was so nice out 3 years ago, we had gone for a long walk around this lake in Columbia. The girls were so little then, I was pushing the double stroller. And as I walked around this lake, I saw 3 or 4 cardinals, one even seem to dive bomb the stroller. Of course it wasn't until I got home, that I heard the sad news.
I am going to be gentle with myself today because I'm alittle sore and it's just a sad anniversary. I have a ton of packing to do, I'm almost done with the laundry. Our babysitter is coming over this afternoon to watch the girls so I can run a couple of errands and get stuff done! We are hoping to leave as early as possible in hopes of avoiding some traffic. We know that there will be some, but the earlier the better. I'm hoping that Sarah isn't disappointed that we are going to spend her birthday in the car. I'm going to try to make it as special as I can. So we will see!
I promise this blog won't always be sad, but it is really helping me to process alot of my thoughts and feelings as I go about this journey. I'm really pleased with my almost 7 mile run this morning, it makes me feel much more confident about the marathon in October.
As Uncle was training for the NYC Marathon in 2000, he sent out this email with the songs that were going to help him get through it. This is just a blurb from what he wrote:
"The rock musical RENT encourages people to live life to the fullest and some
of its songs played a big role in helping me cope with the death of my mom.
One song from RENT, titled Another Day, has become a theme for my marathon
quest. An excerpt:
There's only us, there's only this
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss
No other road, no other way
No day but today."
This song and others from Rent have helped me deal with his death and the reason I have it on my Ipod! Thinking of my whole family today, wish we were together! Sending all my love!! Have a buttercup day!!!