Saturday, July 31, 2010

Feeling accomplished but pretty sleepy....

Where to start, where to start....

Last night Seth and I had a date night again.  It is probably the last one in awhile.  It was a rare occurrence to have 3 in one month, not sure that has happened since before Sarah was born.  But it's been really nice.  It wasn't very exciting, but we went to dinner at Uno's then we went shopping.  I love shopping with Seth, we don't get a chance to really shop anymore with the girls.  It's usually not a fun experience for any of us. There are huge sales around this weekend.  We went to Kohls and bought a bunch of fall school clothes for Sarah.  We got some incredible deals there.  Kohls is one of my new favorite stores now.  Then we went to JCPenney's, they were having big sale too.  I picked up shorts for myself and then a pair of jean capris for each of the girls.  They were on clearance for $7.67, which I thought was pretty good, but when we got up to the checkout, they were only $1.67 each!!!!  I was so surprised and wish that we had more time there, but they were closing.  We then headed over to Target, I love Target.  We bought a bunch of stuff there too, including kites for the family reunion next weekend for $1.51 each.  I so love a bargain, I hate and try really hard not to buy things for full price ever anymore.  We were out shopping until 11:00!!  It was great!!  But I was sleepy when we got home. 

I set my alarm for 6:23am this morning.  I snoozed once and then got up.  I have a hard time getting up without snoozing at least once :)  It might drive Seth slightly crazy.  I got dressed and got in the car and headed over to Centennial Lake.  I was alittle nervous, I was worried to run by myself, but there were SO many people there.  It was a beautiful sunny morning and only 62 degrees, it was fabulous.  The run around the lake was a lot more hilly than the course I had been running.  But I think being on a new trail helped me to keep going because I wasn't sure what was going to happen next.  One thing that I found strange was that there were so many people there and I found that they were ruder, not really getting the stay to the right rule and letting runners going around walkers.  So that was kind of a drag a couple of times, but I tried not to let that discourage me.  I also wanted to soak in the beauty of the lake and trees.  There were a bunch of people fishing in the lake too, I wanted to take it all in and not just focus on my next footstep.  (Our new minister talked about that last week in his sermon, not missing the beauty around you because you are too focused on just what is right in front of you) 

I ran around the lake twice and I wasn't quite at 6 miles so I turned around and went back almost a mile and then double backed again and went a little further.  I figure I went like 2 1/3 way around the lake.   I was only scheduled to run 6 miles, but I was feeling good, it was such a cool, sunny morning and I was in such a beautiful setting that I decided to keep going.  So I ran 7.14 miles in an 1 hr 24 minutes.  That was 6 minutes faster and a tenth of a mile longer than last time.  I'm very proud of myself. 

When I got home, I got right in the shower and the girls got in their bathing suits because we were meeting friends at the pool.  I didn't even want to sit down because I was afraid I might lose my momentum.  We had such a lovely time at the pool today.  We spent most of our time in the "big" pool as opposed to the baby pool.  Sarah continues to amaze me with her swimming.  Emma is doing great too.  It was such a nice day!!  We were at the pool for just about 3 hours. 

When we got home, Seth offered to watch the girls so I could go grocery shopping by myself, a rare treat!!  I think I only bought one thing that wasn't on sale and I had coupons for most things.  It was almost gidy when I handed the cashier the coupons.  (I know I need to get out more).   My bargin shopping has carried over to my groceries now.  I think that's kind of funny :) 

But now as I sit here writing, I could literally fall asleep in a moment.  I'm very tired but I'm not really sore at all.  My blister has reappeared, I think because I picked at the calaus that had formed there.  So I need to figure out what to do with that. My confidence is building, although I worry about saying that because I irrationally fear that something bad will happen once I admit that to you and to myself.  Not sure what I'm afraid will happen, but just that unknown "something."  I know that I need to get over that. 

We need to eat dinner, give Emma a breathing treatment and then give the girls a tub.  They are really tired too, hopefully we can all go to sleep early tonight so we can wake up happy for church.  The girls have a little runny nose and Emma is coughing some, I hate that.   I hope that it doesn't develop into anything more.

I need to go help Seth with dinner, I've had a great day, I got alot done, I'm tired, but it's a really good kind of tired.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

My Inner Child Update!

My 5 mile run this morning really improved my outlook on things.  I ran a slightly different route to start working on hills.  I haven't done a lot of hills and it was a little rough.  But I started.  It was a good run, I was a little worried about time because I got up a few minutes late and then got out the door later than I had wanted.  But I got in 5.02 miles in 60 minutes.  I was pleased with my progress.  I'm scheduled for a 6 mile run on Saturday.  I'm hoping to run around Centennial Lake with my friend Joni.  I will need to run around the lake twice and there are a bunch of hills.  So we shall see. 

First let me say how much I LOVE living in Columbia, it's a wonderful town, with many little villages in it, each village has a little shopping center.  It has several lakes, many playgrounds and these wonderful paved paths all over that are all connected.  We have a path right behind our house that leads to a pond and playground.  That is where I do my running.  I keep meaning to bring my camera so I can take a picture of where I run, but that's for another day.  Anyway, Columbia is a great place with great schools, it's a wonderful place to raise my girls.  I wouldn't want to live any where else. 

All that being said, Columbia was the first planned community in the US.  We pay dues to the Columbia Association to maintain the paths and common areas.  We have rules about making changes to our house and our yard.  When lightning hit one of our trees, we would have had to send in a application to cut down the whole tree, with a site plan and pictures.  It just seemed like to much work so we just had the damaged limb cut down.  I want to replace the shutters on our house this summer, so I will have to take pictures, submit a plan and see if they approve my color choice.  It's kind of a drag. 

There are more than 20 pools in Columbia and if you buy a pool membership, you can go to any of them, which is completely fantastic.  The girls and I love hanging out at the pool and we do go to different ones all the time  You can also buy a membership go to any of the the several gyms in the area.  So you have lots of opportunities in Columbia, but it can be slightly expensive to take advantage of all of that they have to offer. 

Sorry to ramble on about all that, but you needed the background info to understand my latest dealing with them.  I had gotten a flyer in the mail that they were having a special deal, $36 a month to join, you had to sign up for 2 years, and you could only work out at one gym, Supreme Sports Club.  That is my favorite gym and the one I used most of all anyway when we had belonged to it before.  They have an indoor pool and tons of classes.  I called the Columbia Association to confirm the deal and they went over all the prices of the different levels that you could buy.  I just wanted the basic one and it was going to be just for me, not the whole family.  I called Seth at work and asked if we could all go last night to sign up!  So when he got home  we headed over to the CA.  When we got there we waited in line for 15-20 minutes before getting up to the counter.  When it was my turn, I told her I wanted to sign up for the deal, she was very nice but asked if I had brought the flyer.  I said I didn't have it and no where on the flyer did it say that I needed to bring it, she agreed and said that she had talked to marketing about it, that it needed to say that.  She asked if Seth could go get, I said no, the girls hadn't eaten dinner yet.  She said she could sign me up at the regular price and then switch me, but she could not honor the $36 price without this flyer.  I told her that I had talked to someone for a long time on the phone going over anything and she never told me that I needed to bring it in either.  I was so livid.  We have had issues with member services before, we are told one thing on the phone and another when we get to the office.  Seth was livid too, he is much more vocal than I am.  She said that she couldn't help me, I asked to speak to the manager, she was the manager.  I'm not good with conflict, the angrier Seth got, the more I just wanted to leave.  She wouldn't budge about this GD flyer, I was so pissed and disappointed.  The main reason I wanted to join was to do some weight training and some classes to get ready for the 1/2 marathon.  But I will certainly use it after the 1/2 is over!  My inner child was throwing a huge temper tantrum inside, I had let a few tears flow, but I didn't want my girls to see me so upset, so I was trying to keep it together.  They knew that I was upset and I think showing them all the emotions is good, but I was SO angry, they didn't need to see that.  The biggest bummer about this whole stupid issue is that because the flyer didn't say it was a coupon or that I needed to bring it with me to get the deal, I recycled it the other day when I was cleaning up and so it's gone.  So I don't even have this GD flyer.  The whole thing is just ridiculous and I'm going to call the gym today instead of member services to see if they will help me. 

Looking at it today, I'm not as angry, but I'm still disappointed.  I really want/need to join a gym and I had wanted to do it for the lowest cost so it doesn't upset our family budget.  This seemed like such a great deal.  My anger may flare again if they can't help me today.  I know that it's just a bump on my journey, something we will hopefully laugh about soon.  I do think that the Columbia Association is not a well run organization, we've had problems and I've heard others who have had them as well. 

But my inner child is still pouting and pissed and has had a rough week.  Starting with Coach outlet being closed 5 minutes before I got there on my birthday and then this.  I'm also having issues with the girls listening.  And they both seem to want Seth and not me.  Emma cried because I was going to get her out of the car instead of Seth. Just a rough week for my inner child and my pride. 

But like I said at the start, my 39 year old self had a fantastic run this morning.  It really helped put things in perspective.  I'll join a gym, hopefully this one, but regardless, we'll figure it all out.  I'll work on my hills and my speed.  My inner child just needs a little more love so she can stop pouting.  It will all work out somehow.  I'm confident of that. 

Thanks for reading all of my ramblings, it means a lot!


Not sure where to write my update, but I just called the gym and the manager was so nice! He said I didn't need the flyer at all, he didn't understand why they said that. He said he wanted me as a member and he said that he wanted to help me prepare for the 1/2! He said just come on in and someone would get me signed up!  So we are going to go tonight when Seth gets home from work. But again, it's just a ridiculous way to run an organization. One place saying one thing and another place saying another! Anyway, it's all good and I'll join the gym tonight!!! YEAH!!!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

And so it begins, again....

I had a lovely birthday!  39 so far has been pretty good!  We went to church and heard our new minister, I really enjoyed the service.  It felt good to be back, we had missed 3 weeks.  It was nice to be there.  Then we went to Applebee's for lunch, which was nice.  Seth gave me the new Alison Weir book "Captive Queen: A Novel of Eleanor of Aquitaine," I'm very excited, I just need to finish Wolfe Hall and then I can get started on it.  After lunch we headed to Leesburg, VA to go shopping at the outlets there.  I wanted to hit the Coach outlet, kind of hoping for another birthday present from there :)  We went the back way to get there and we saw these black clouds in the distance.  They kept getting closer and closer.  We drove through a really bad storm; incredible rain, lots of lighting and thunder and very strong wind.  There were tree limbs down all over the place and Seth said I drove over some power lines, I didn't see them in the road. There were so many leaves and branches in the road.   At one point we came to a complete stop because there was a tree down in the road.  We were all safe though, Emma actually slept through it.  When we arrived at the outlets it was sprinkling, but no big storm and by the time we got really shopping the sun had come out.  Seth and Sarah got some shoes, we stopped at a couple other stores and then I headed over to the Coach outlet.  As I got closer to the store, I noticed there were several people standing in front of the store and there was a sign on the door "No air conditioning, closing at 4:30 today."  Of course I got to the store at 4:35, I was so bummed.  I felt a bit like a spoiled child, I wanted to throw a tantrum, but I held it in.  The girls weren't having the best time, they aren't big shoppers yet :). We hit a couple other stores and then headed back to the car.

Yesterday was such a lovely day!  We went to story time at the library and then we went to the pool.  It was such a nice day!  The girls played nicely with their friends and I got a chance to talk with my good friend Julie.  The weather was fantastic.  I couldn't have asked for a nicer day. 

My "official" 1/2 marathon training on my Nike sensor/Ipod/website started this morning, I was scheduled to run 4 miles. I got up and went for a great run.  It was 62 degrees outside and low humidity.  I used my new Halo sweatband, I folded it in half, it is to big for my forehead, but it worked great, no sweat in my eyes.  I just wish it was narrower.  I also was wearing my new sports bra, another great purchase!  It felt great to run in the cooler weather, I ran most of my run this morning (which sounds kind of silly, but with the heat, I had been doing some walking on my run).  With good music on my Ipod, I was doing really well.  I had run 2.94 miles in 34 minutes, I was on a roll.  Then I went to turn up the music on my Ipod and for some reason it locked up.  My workout session ended, I was so pissed.  I'm not sure what happened, but whatever.  I started another workout on my Ipod and I ran another 1.9 miles in 23 minutes.  So in total, I ran 4.8 miles in 57 minutes.  I was pretty pleased with myself.  Not the best time, but not the worst and certainly better than I have done in the past couple of runs in the heat.  I felt great after I finished.  I was worried that it wouldn't "count" on the Nike website, but it did, so all is good. 
So as I'm starting being 39, I'm beginning my "official" 12 week training program.  So far it's going well.  I'm scheduled for another 4 mile run on Thursday and then a 6 mile run on Saturday, and so it goes on. 

Saturday, July 24, 2010

My last day of 38....

All week long, I've been thinking about writing this post, thinking that on the last day of being 38, I would miraculously have some words of wisdom pop into my head.  Nothing so far this morning has materialized.  Oh well.  Maybe it will appear on the first day of me being 39, we shall see.

I had wanted to go for a longer run this morning, but my life and the weather have thwarted me, which is all good actually.  Hopefully I can get up before church tomorrow and get a good run in.  I would like that.  I didn't even try to get up this morning, Seth and I didn't get home from his high school reunion until after 1:00am, then we stayed up talking to my friend Stephanie, who had watched the girls, until almost 2.  I haven't seen 2:00, without in a sick child, in a really long time. We had such a fantastic time.  I knew one couple very well and had met a couple other people before.  Seth had such a wonderful time catching up with people and telling stories, I loved watching him.  I loved listening to the 80s music the DJs were playing, it was fun!  In fact, I'm importing the CD Purple Rain, so I can put some of the songs on my running playlist on my Ipod.  One of Seth's good friends is going to run the Baltimore Marathon for the 10th time this year.  He has done it every year, that impresses me! 

I did run 4 miles on Thursday morning, it was a good run.  The humidity was relatively low, considering what it has been, so it made it much easier.  My "official" training on my Nike sensor starts on Tuesday, I'm excited about it.  Although this week is basically what I did last week, it's a good place to start and like I said in my last post, I love having a plan! 

So looking back on 38, it's been a pretty good year.  Quick recap, Sarah went to preschool 5 days a week, I ran my first 5K; we found a church that we all really like; we had an incredible trip to Disney and Sarasota, my friends and did a weight loss competition and I lost 15 pounds; Emma started preschool 2 days a week in March, I started running again; I did another 5K; the girls were baptized; I signed up for the Baltimore 1/2 marathon; we had an amazing trip to the Outer Banks.  Those are just some of the highlights from being 38, of course there have been hard times and yucky days, but overall, it's been a great year.  As 39 approached, I started to feel a little blue, 29 was horrible but then 30 was great for me.  I feared a pattern was developing. 

But on the eve of my 39th birthday, I'm feeling pretty positive and actually  possibly the best place I've ever been in my life.  I have 2 beautiful, smart, and funny girls who I love more than anything.  I have a wonderful, loving husband, who is nothing but encouraging and supportive of me and loves me in all my crazy adventures.  I have an amazing family who also is incredibly supportive and loving!  I have great friends, who make me laugh and who listen (or read) to me and offer advice or just "like" what's going on.  I'm excited that we have found a church that feels like home to me, I didn't realize how much I had been missing it.  I have my health and I'm working with my body instead of against it, I sometimes worry that it is going to rear it's ugly head like it has in the past, but I'm trying to be smart and listen to it and go with it.  I'm probably in the best shape I have been in in years.  I just wish the scale would cooperate, most mornings it doesn't, I wish I could lose more weight, I'm working on it, but it's slow going.  A few weeks ago though I saw this quote that said "Overweight and active beats skinny and inactive any day."  I just have to remind myself of that (sometimes over and over).  I have this amazing challenge out a head of me and it seems so huge at times, but for the most part, I'm confident that I can do it!!  I am so grateful and overwhelmed by every one's support and encouragement.  Thank you!!  It all helps me to keep going on this incredible journey.  I'm so blessed and thankful!!

39 will be an amazing year, starting with my family reunion the first weekend of August, I'm so excited to see everyone in such a beautiful setting!!  Sarah starts kindergarten, Emma starts a new preschool, 3 mornings a week.  Seth and I will be married 6 years in October, the 1/2 Marathon is the day after our anniversary.  And that is just in the next few months and the things I can think of off the top of my head - who knows what the rest of the year will hold?  Life is good!!  39 is good!!  What will I think of 40?!?!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

A plan...

I ran 3.81 miles this morning in 46 minutes.  It was really hard to get up when the alarm went off this morning, I did snooze once, but then I had to tell myself that I would feel better after my run than I would if I didn't get up.  And I do feel better that I got up.  Although I was kind of discouraged this morning, thinking what have I gotten myself into by signing up for this 1/2 Marathon.  For the first time, I worried that I couldn't do it and felt pretty blue.  I find it harder to run in the humidity, even at 6:20 this morning, it was 71 degrees with 90% humidity.  I'm not very fast.  When I got home, Seth reassured me that I could do it and I felt better.  Of course it's been a rough 24 hours around here too.

We had a fantastic weekend.  Seth and I went to see the movie Inception and it was great, I'm still thinking about it.  I highly recommend it and then would love to talk about it :)  We skipped church on Sunday and went out to Frostburg to see Aunt Donna and Uncle JB.  It was a lovely day!  We spent most of the afternoon in their pool, it was great!  Aunt Donna made this fantastic lunch.  Emma didn't really eat her lunch and just snacked all afternoon.  Emma did really well in the pool and can really move in the water with her water wings on.  Sarah showed off her cool tricks and learned how to dive to the bottom of the pool to pick up coins that Uncle JB had dropped in there for her.  She continues to amaze me!!

We got home late, after 10:00.  We all fell asleep quickly.  Emma woke Seth up around 1:00 because she had to go potty, then she started to get sick.  I woke up instantly and went to help.  I thought that she had eaten to much junk food and that was why she had thrown up.  But then she continued to get sick, I realized she had a virus.  Seth was up with her most of the night, Sarah came and slept with me.  She continued getting sick until about 3:00 yesterday afternoon.  I held her for most of the day.  She is still like a rag doll, I'm trying to get her to drink but she doesn't seem all that interested.  Seth is going to bring home some Pediapops and saltines at lunch time.  She fell asleep around 8:30 this morning and just woke up around 10:00.  She is just lying on the couch now.  Sarah has been a champ too.  Seth brought in our portable DVD player and Sarah has been watching movies on that in the living room with us. 

Needless to say, it's been yucky around here.  I'm fairly certain that is why I was feeling so discouraged this morning.  Not much sleep and worried about Em.  So while Em was napping this morning I set up the 1/2 marathon training schedule on my Nike website/sensor/Ipod!!  It doesn't officially start until next Tuesday, but it's set up.  It has empowered me, looking at the schedule, I'm sure I can do it.  It has given me concrete workouts to help me get to October 16th.  I do know that I need to run more on hills and I need to work on my speed.  My plan is to join a gym when the girls start school so that I can work on weight training.  I also know that I need to work on my diet and think more about the food I eat and how it can help me achieve my goals.  So, I have a plan, which always makes me feel better. 

Quick update, since I have started writing this Emma has had a Popsicle and eaten some toast.  She said she was hungry and has perked up a little.  I'm taking that as a good sign. 

Also a quick update about my petunias, this year we have 2 colors, white and pink flowers.  We didn't have white flowers last year.  Wonder what that means? 

Saturday, July 17, 2010

7 Miles!!!!

Well, I have achieved my own personal goal of running 7 miles, it has seemed elusive for the past couple of weeks.  I'm afraid though I made a rookie mistake by trying to get to this distance with my new shoes and insoles.  I'm feeling pretty good overall, except that my feet hurt.  Bummer!  I mostly walked the first 2.5 miles to get used to them.  I was afraid that I was going to have to call it quits and I was getting kind of discouraged, but then a great song came on and I took off running and my feet felt better and things started looking up!  My time was pretty slow, I did it in 90 minutes, it was hot out, but I'm really proud of myself!  Lance Armstrong congratulated me when I got home (in my Nike sensor workout) for my longest workout so far!  I know you are probably sick of hearing this, but I love my Nike sensor!!!! 

When I got inside and took off my shoes, my feet really hurt.  I massaged them and they felt some better. My arches feel great but the outside edge of my feet is where it hurts, probably because they have been getting a free ride since my feet have been rolling in.  But my legs and hips feel fine!  I took some preventative Motrin before I left, I'm hoping that helped.  I'm hoping that I didn't screw up by going so far.  I'll just be gentle to myself the rest of the day! 

Actually, I have a bunch of things to do around here today.  I need to do laundry.  On a side note, does anyone know why you can't use fabric softener for the "moisture wicking" material in shirts, shorts and socks?  And does this include using Bounce in the dryer?  Thanks!  This afternoon we are dropping the girls off at their old school for Parent's Night Out.  They will be there from 4-9 and Seth and I are going to see the movie Inception and then get some dinner!!  YEAH!!!  A rare occurrence is happening in the Churchill house, Seth and I actually have date nights for the next 3 weeks.  Not sure that has happened since we have had children!  It's like an eclipse or something! :)  Next weekend is his high school reunion.  We also have another date night in August.  Crazy!!!

The girls finished Vacation Bible School yesterday, they loved it and are so sad that it is over.  Sarah was actually crying about it last night.  I made a couple videos of them singing I will try to post them.  They loved the music and have given us concerts almost every night this week.  We need to find them so more things to do apparently.  I bought some workbooks for them and I'm not joking we spent almost 2 1/2 hours working in them yesterday afternoon.  It was great!  I loved seeing what they know and watching them figure things out.  It was fantastic!  Next week is looming over me because we have absolutely nothing planned.  I'm hoping for some good pool days and maybe a playdate or two.  Also they are a bunch of things going on at the library that we are going to check out. 

We have church tomorrow and then out to Frostburg to see Aunt Donna and Uncle JB.  The girls are excited to show them all their new tricks in the pool.  I love our weekends! 

Have a buttercup day!!!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Back in the swing of things...

So, I have been a bit off track since we got back from vacation.  I hadn't run since Friday, I guess I needed the rest.  I had planned to run on Monday and Tuesday but I could not get up when the alarm went off.  I've read that rest is a big part of training too, I need to remember that.  I ran/walked 4.7 miles this morning and it was kind of rough.  My legs were pretty sore.  I walked quite a while to warm up, but it was a tough run.  I need to get back into the routine of things.  Luckily the rain held off this morning.  I did reach my goal of 56 miles by July 15th, in fact, I have run 59.86 miles since June 17th.  I am really proud of myself.  I set another goal of 65 miles in 4 weeks (YIKES!!!)  I'm pretty sure I can do it though!!!  I think that if coming back from vacation hadn't messed me up I would have done that this time.  It has been a tough transition back to non-vacation life.  The girls have had Vacation Bible School every morning this week so that has helped some, I've been able to get errands done. 

Sarah's school gave us a list of school supplies that we need to get before school starts, Staples had a great sale this week, so I was able to get them all this morning!  It was a strange feeling buying supplies for my girl, I still am in disbelief that she is going to kindergarten in the fall.  But I'm glad that is checked off my list. 

After I finished there I went to Road Runner Sports where I got my foot and my gait analyzed.  Apparently I have a medium arch, and I roll my foot in when I run because I have a collapsing arch (which sounds bad to me).  That could be because of my Achilles tendon injury last fall or it could have been the cause of the injury.  But they got me in a pair of Saucony shoes, which are stabilizing shoes with an arch support.  So far so good, I'm wearing them around the house to get used to the insole.  I can't wait to go for a run!!  I should wait until Friday, so we'll see.  They have a 60 day return policy, so if they don't work out, I can just bring them back, I think that is pretty cool!  But I have a good feeling so far. 

Sarah had her 5 year checkup on Monday.  It went very well.  Her doctor was very pleased with how she is doing.  She is 75% for height and weight.  We need to get her eyes checked, they were borderline but since Seth and I both wear glasses, he thought that we should get them checked.  Also, she has had a umbilical hernia since birth, we were told to wait and see.  She still has a defect, so if it isn't healed by next summer, she will have to have surgery.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed and saying prayers that it heals this year.  I know it's a pretty minor surgery, I just don't want my girl to have to go through it. 

The girls are loving Vacation Bible School, I'm so glad.  We got a CD of the songs that they are learning there.  Last night, Sarah gave us quite the concert!  Singing along with dancing and sign language.  It was great!  I'm loving a little Mommy time too!! 

In some ways, this summer feels almost over.  With preparing to get Sarah and Emma to school and then preparing for the 1/2 marathon in October, it seems like it's almost over.  I realize it's only the middle of July and there is lots of summer left, but I'm just looking so far forward.  Being home with the girls this summer has been harder for me than I thought. I'm looking forward to the rain going away so we can get back to the pool, that makes the days go by so much faster and happier.  It's so hard to be in a bad mood while you are at the pool. 

Ok, I've rambled enough, and yet I feel like there was more that I wanted to say, but now I can't think of it.  Typical of my brain lately but now I feel more back in the swing of things...

Friday, July 9, 2010

Rainy Days...

I got to 6.3 miles this morning, I did my best to run around the rain.  It actually was a great run, I felt good, it was cool and there was a nice breeze.  I did have to stop once to get out of the rain.  It poured really hard for a few minutes.  I ducked under some one's car port.  I really thought I was going to make it to 7 miles this morning, but I was .7 miles short.  As I ran by our house, it was pouring so hard again so I decided it was time to stop, I was soaking wet and I was worried about my Ipod and sensor.  So I stopped. 
As I was getting in the shower, I looked out the window and the sun was out.  I'm alittle blue that I didn't wait it out, but even though I didn't quite get to 7 miles, it was a fantastic run, even in the rain!!  I just have to feel good about that!! 
We are going to go for a ride up to Duck now.  The weather can't quite decide what it wants to do, one minute it's sunny, then very cloudy.  There is a Riptide warning so no swimming at the beach.  I love Duck!!!
Can't believe that we have to leave tomorrow, it will be sad. 
Have a buttercup day!!!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes.....

Yesterday I ran 5 miles and it was SO much nicer than my run on Monday.  Not sure what the difference was, but regardless, it felt good.  My blister on my foot is still causing some problems, I put a blister band-aid on it but it still got bigger.  Today I bought Liquid Bandage, I heard that helped, so I will try that and see how it goes.  When we get home, I'm going to go to a shoe store and have them help me pick out the right shoes for me. 
I had set a goal of running 56 miles by July 15th on the Nike website, I'm only 7 miles from my goal.  I'm thinking that I may try to get up earlier tomorrow and go for it and finish it.  I won't be able to go for a long run on Saturday or Sunday, so it makes sense to me to try and do my long run tomorrow.  So we shall see, wish me luck!! 
We are having a great time here, can't believe how fast the week has gone by.  We played Mini-golf yesterday and it was very fun, but it was very hot.  Today we went to The Elizabethan Gardens, it was so beautiful.  They had a scavenger hunt for the girls and they really got into it, so it made it much more enjoyable.  Since I have been doing so much reading about Queen Elizabeth, it made it even cooler to be there.  We got some great pictures, I'll post them soon. I got 2 of a beautiful cardinal sitting on a branch, it was beautiful.  Then we went to the Christmas Shop and I got the girls their Christmas tree ornaments.  You can get totally lost in this store, so many things to look at!! I will be sad to leave here on Saturday.  We are going to go to the pool in a little while. 
Last night we went to bed earlier than we had all week, but it was sort of restless sleeping.  Our bed makes a huge creaking noise every time you move.  But I had the absolute most amazing dream!!!  I dreamt that I was at my house and I was talking to Uncle Peter on the phone.  Even though we were on the phone I could see him.  It was SO good to see his face!  I asked him what he was up to and he said he was about to go see Sister Sue, and then he was going to Radio City Music Hall to see the Rockettes.  I told him that I was going to run the half marathon for him, but then our call got disconnected.  But then either he called me back or I called him because our conversation continued.  He said it was wonderful that I was running and he kind of laughed.  I told him that I knew I could finish it, even if I had to walk it and he said that he knew.  I told him about my last couple of runs down here.  It was so good to talk to him and hear his voice and his laugh.  Even though it was in the present, it wasn't sad to talk to him, it was like I had talked to him every day for the last 3 years. But then I woke up suddenly and I was SO sad that it was over and I wished that I could call him back again, but at the same time so grateful that I had talked him at all, it seemed so real.  I feel so lucky and blessed.  It was such an amazing dream and I hope I never forget it. 

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

Monday, July 5, 2010

Sweat Gets in Your Eyes!

We are having a fabulous time in the Outer Banks.  We sailed down here until we got about 30 miles from our rental house.  Then traffic stopped and it took us like 2 1/2 hours to come the rest of the way!  It got a little frustrating at times, but we are SO glad to be here. 
We had a happy 4th!  We had great pool time, Sarah is already an amazing swimmer, and she hasn't had any lessons.  We need to get her signed up for some.  Emma is more timid, but she still was jumping in to the pool, into our arms.  Fireworks on the beach did not work out like we had planned but we could see them from our deck.  They were going off all around us.  The girls thought that it they were to loud and wanted to move inside.  We watched the fireworks on TV and they were much happier.  We have had a couple late nights since we have been here, I'm hoping we can get them to bed earlier tonight. 
Today has been such a fantastic day!  We all slept until 8 and then I went out for my run.  It was a harder run than usual for me.  My calf was sore, maybe still sore from my run on Friday.  So I was doing some power walking.  Great songs on my Ipod, and the breeze was invigorating!  I walked the first half and then I ran most of the second half.  I did 5 miles in 64 minutes, I was suprised when I got home, I thought it would take me longer, and in my head, I was already trying to not beat myself up, that walking is just as important and in the heat you need to give yourself a break.  It was really hot and my eyes were stinging from the sweat, I really need to get a headband of some sort.  So I was expecting to be disappointed, but I was pleasantly surprised. 
Only 12 more miles until I reach my goal of 56 miles by July 15th.  I know I can do that!!  Still loving my Nike Sensor. 
After a quick shower, we geared up and went over to the beach and it was so delightful.  The girls played nicely, went into the waves some and played in the sand.  I sat under my umbrella and just drank it all in, it was so lovely!!  Seth brought us sandwiches on the beach.  Then it was time to head back to the beach house.
We all washed the sand off and jumped into the pool.  My girls are getting so brave in the water, which is fantastic, but also a little nerve racking for me.  It has just been a glorious day!!!  I can't believe it's only Monday!!  Pictures will be coming later. 
I'm hoping we all get some good sleep tonight so that our great week can continue.  We talked about when we win Powerball or MegaMillions we are going to buy a house down here.  It's just so glorious!!!

Friday, July 2, 2010

No Day But Today!!!

So I acheived my goal of running 6 miles today, in fact I ran 6.67 miles.  I didn't really intend to run that far, but I had some issues with my Ipod and Nike Sensor.  I realized that if you set up a custom workout, the little guy doesn't talk in your ear, so I restarted my workout for a 5 mile run.  And then every mile, he was there to tell me :)  I ran it in an hour 20 minutes.  It felt great, I ran most of it.  The weather was perfect, it was 57 degrees when I left the house this morning!  My legs are alittle sore now, I took some Aleve.  I also have a big blister on my foot.  That hasn't happened before, do I need new shoes, new socks or is that just a normal part of running farther distances?  But another reminder of Uncle.  When I was 16 and went down to visit him in NYC, we walked so much in my week long stay that I got these HUGE blisters on my feet.  He had little sympathy for me and I admit that I was pretty spoiled then.  I had some amazing experiences that week, but we kind of clashed at that point in life.  It was a rough week actually. 

I have my music on my Ipod on shuffle mode, so I never know what song will come next.  Near the end of my run, I got very sad and started to cry and just at the moment, the song "Another Day" from Rent came on my Ipod and I cried even harder but kept going.  I'm sure it was Uncle saying he was right there with me and not to be sad.  I miss him so much!!  He was never far from my thoughts this morning. 

The weather 3 years ago today is remarkably similar to today's weather.  What a treat for there to be no humidity in July in MD.  It was so nice out 3 years ago, we had gone for a long walk around this lake in Columbia.  The girls were so little then, I was pushing the double stroller.  And as I walked around this lake, I saw 3 or 4 cardinals, one even seem to dive bomb the stroller.  Of course it wasn't until I got home, that I heard the sad news. 

I am going to be gentle with myself today because I'm alittle sore and it's just a sad anniversary.  I have a ton of packing to do, I'm almost done with the laundry.  Our babysitter is coming over this afternoon to watch the girls so I can run a couple of errands and get stuff done!  We are hoping to leave as early as possible in hopes of avoiding some traffic.  We know that there will be some, but the earlier the better.  I'm hoping that Sarah isn't disappointed that we are going to spend her birthday in the car.  I'm going to try to make it as special as I can.  So we will see! 

I promise this blog won't always be sad, but it is really helping me to process alot of my thoughts and feelings as I go about this journey.  I'm really pleased with my almost 7 mile run this morning, it makes me feel much more confident about the marathon in October. 

As Uncle was training for the NYC Marathon in 2000, he sent out this email with the songs that were going to help him get through it.  This is just a blurb from what he wrote: 

"The rock musical RENT encourages people to live life to the fullest and some
of its songs played a big role in helping me cope with the death of my mom.
One song from RENT, titled Another Day, has become a theme for my marathon
quest. An excerpt:
There's only us, there's only this
Forget regret, or life is yours to miss
No other road, no other way
No day but today."

This song and others from Rent have helped me deal with his death and the reason I have it on my Ipod!  Thinking of my whole family today, wish we were together!  Sending all my love!!  Have a buttercup day!!!