Because it's getting so dark out in the morning, I have had to change up my schedule some. So I dropped both girls off at school and then headed over to Centennial Lake for my run. I have to admit to my vanity that I really didn't want to drop them off in my workout clothes, but it worked this morning so I will probably do it more often :)
It is another absolutely gorgeous day here! Not a cloud in the sky and it's that beautiful deep shade of blue. When I walked up to the lake this morning, it was completely still and it looked like a mirror reflecting back all the trees. If you didn't know that there was a lake there, you almost couldn't see it. I wished I had my camera so I could capture it.
I started out feeling pretty good, I thought since I had been up for a couple of hours and had eaten some that it had really helped. I was very pleased with how I was doing and then that second mile came upon me and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I got discouraged and thought what have I gotten myself into, I can't even run 2 miles without any problems. I was very negative. Even though this happens just about every run, I still play the same things over and over in my head. And then I get to 2.7 miles and my endorphins kick in and I'm feeling so much better, by the time I get to 4 miles, I feel like I'm really in a good groove. And my outlook improves and life is good! I did 6.18 miles in an hour and fifteen minutes, an average pace of 12'11, I was pleased! I had to rush home to shower so I could go pick up Emma. It actually worked out perfect, I was even able to blow dry my hair before I picked her up :) (Again the vanity is showing)
I need to stop all the negative thoughts at that 2 mile mark. That is the time when I need to remember all the quotes from the website "Lift Your Sole" (http://www.liftyoursole.com) - which is a website that sells running and inspirational jewelry. I highly recommend checking them out! I'm a fan on Facebook so they send me a great quote everyday. The quote from last night was "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising ever time we fall." Confucius I actually write them down most days in my calendar so I can re-read them when I'm feeling down. Another one that I really like is "Courage is tiny pieces of fear all glued together." So this 2 mile mark is really when I need these quotes the most. I know that I'm not very fast but I ran 11 miles on Saturday and will run another 11 miles this Saturday. I need to hold my accomplishment close to me and when I start feeling down and discouraged, I need to kick that negative voice out of my head.
This is my favorite quote from that website: "When you come to the edge of all the light you have known and are about to step out into the darkness, Faith is knowing one of two things will happen...there will be something to stand on or you will be taught how to fly."
Not just in my running, but in life right now, I need to hold on tight to my faith. I feel enormous love and support from my family, my friends and my new church family. I'm looking forward to being taught how to fly.